What if pain was a fear of expansion...

Author:  Bianca Moeschinger - 15th April 2023

Pain, pain pain, what is worse than pain, it is something we avoid, run from, numb out and get really frustrated and angry at. It is the one thing that can turn a functioning, healthy person into a raving lunatic. Ok big words, but you get the gist. It is not something we can bear.

Everyone has mastered a different tolerance level and relationship with pain. In fact, our bodies are designed to numb out or find comfort in pain to the extent where the pain sensation is literally cut off from being reported to our cognitive awareness.

So this may or may not surprise you, but I like to play with the concept of pain in my own body. I ask the questions like:

Is this discomfort or pain my bodies telling me something is wrong or my body telling me something is changing in the right direction? I tend to go for the later now. With many years of investigative feeling under my belt, I am gathering quite a catalogue of experiences and I trust my body enough to now dive deep into the sensation and explore what is there.

I have noticed of late that my pain in my limbs and joints is perhaps a holding onto my reality and pulling away from expansion in all areas of my life. We know that expansion is always happening; the universe is expanding at the speed of knots. We are living within the universe. Our third dimensional body we believe doesn't expand at that rate... Hmm, it makes me ponder this statement if it is true or real?

Each of our dimensions vibrate at a different level and the more conscious we are the faster we will expand and evolve, so could it be that the only things that are stopping us from expanding is our fear of expanding, lack of knowledge and understanding, holding on to our current belief system and reality, not knowing what the future holds or holding on super tight to the identity that we have put so much effort in to forming.

And could those very things be causing us pain?

Let's break down pain...

• Pain from trauma
• Muscular and joint pain
• Emotional pain

They are all different and yet the same. They all speak to the nervous system, which reports back to the brain and then the body responds to that information, in most cases, the same way we have always responded. Why? Because we know that path, it is safe we can handle it, so why change it? Thus brings me back to expansion.

The human is a creature of repetition. We repeat things over and over again until we either get it right or we find comfort in it. Is that good for us?

I recently wrote a newsletter to my community, it goes like this...

"Four weeks ago I went skiing with my family in Japan. It was the first trip we have had since planes started flying again. Can I just say that it was the best thing; I didn't realise how much I needed it. Diversity is the key to a healthy existence. Our entire being thrives on expansion and diversity.

Whilst I have been at home in the comfort of my own routine, suburb, friends and daily tasks, I realised I wasn't bringing in any challenge. I had mastered everything that I was doing to a level where I was comfortable. This sounds wonderful and yet it's not. We can only expand when we are faced with something new. In our comfort zone, we can easily excuse ourselves or move away from the new if we don't like it, but when travelling we are facing discomfort, no matter how much we have planned the trip ahead.

Discomfort leads to opportunity, expansion, resilience.... It leads to pushing past the self-imposed boundaries to reach that place of 'wow I can do that'. Our hormones start to party.

I have recently started to ponder on my past. For those that know me well, know that my life hasn't always been in comfort. In fact, some of the experiences I have had have been on the very edge.

I had a realisation that the experience of that reality was scary: At times I could hardly breathe and was not sure what the future held or whether or not I was going to survive.

In my current reality I am warm, I have a fridge full of food, I can eat out a lot and take ski trips to Japan. Both realities are abundant with experience, neither one is good nor bad. Now that I have experienced both, I realise nothing stays the same. With little or a lot, it is still the same: me in that experience. I can go skinny or I can go fat and, in both realities, I will thrive.

The more challenging reality has taught me that no matter what, I will and can survive. Instead of moving into the future, not breathing, or braced in fear, I can breathe into the expansion of what is coming next. Even though I have no idea what's coming, my body has all its resources to thrive.

This little piece of gold can be applied in any situation. How is my container, my body, showing up in any present moment: Am I braced? Am I defensive? Am I breathing as I move into a new moment? I ask you the same question."

So in conclusion, I am going to move towards mind/body expansion; I am going to watch my fear; I am also going to watch my judgement. Whilst I am doing that, I am going to witness how attached I am to my current identity and state of being and then ask myself... Was that creating pain, disease, disharmony? I am then going to observe what starts to change in my life.

I am a great believer that we can go through this life anyway we want too and it won't affect our soul's path. Our actualisation of self will happen no matter the occupation, wealth status or level of perceived achievement.

Bianca x